So Sick

Sorry everyone, been so sick for the last little while. Every fibre of my being has been infected with this nasty virus that involved everything from fevers and delusions and death dreams that continued from one day to the next. It was just totally nasty. We have had no power at work the last two days but are still expected to be there so I called in sick yesterday and today. Granted I have felt much better over those two days and probably should have worked. But it was so nice to spend yesterday cuddled up to L's younger son while it stormed outside. Spending time with kids can really open your eyes to the rest of the world. You get the ability to see both sides of something just a little bit clearer. And they are so sweet when you are sick. A little hand with a voice saying "it's ok,just sleep", and your hearts just melt.

Friends With Managment... Is It Possible?

Is it possible to be friends with management at work? Case in point, my direct boss, C. We got to be really good friends and then got in this huge fight over a visit from our then project manager. Nothing has been the same since. Last night we had our Holiday Girl Time Gala, a private after hours event for preferred customers. After that the new cosmetics manager, whom worked in ladies wear when I started, K invited me for drinks with her. So off the two of us go for drinks. At this point I realized that although K and I knew each other well at work, she is a very different person outside of work. I like her both ways. Me I am who I am, regardless of where I am. K pointed out that become good friends with management is a mistake (K what the hell were we doing last night then?), and that I do way too much. After 2 double Bellini's she made me sign a 'legally binding contract' to not baby sit or house sit for my friends any more. They are my friends and will understand when I say no. Made me sign it then added a post script that I will only do baby sit or house sit for my very best friend, K. Lol, K that was awesome, and we should definitely do that more often!

Platinum and Pink

So I'm outside on my last coffee break today and I look over a notice the couple sitting next to me. The guy was just your average 40-something guy. The woman on the other hand had platinum blond hair with jet black eyebrows (not to mention the roots), fully done make up and to top it off, bright pink lipstick. What is it with society's blond obsession? Inseret "Dirty Laundry" lyrics here. That look has to be the most overdone, fake look ever. Not to mention the fact that it is the basis of dumb blond looks. So two questions; are guys really attracted to this extremely fake and high maintance look; and are women really that insecure that they have to go from being themselves, to being the kind of phony, to the complete fake? Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I despise them, several of my own friends are like that in a way. Some do it really well (L) some not so much (T). In this case, L is the inbetween cuz she softens it to a honey tone, and you can hardly tell the difference when her roots grow a bit, T on the other hand has the complete package of platinum and pink. Will our obsession ever end, or will we simply sucumb to the era of the bubble headed bleached blond?

Work Life vs Personal Life

So I met two of my sister's at work many years ago. Since then we have all grown and (well most of us) have matured. Both of them moved on to other jobs that were specifically related to their fields. I stayed and moved up in the company. It is not my field of choice, however it is a deffinite back up option. I know that if I want to move up further I can. So for the last couple of years, all four of us have had completely separate and distinct work lives. Obviously there has been some overlap, but for the most part they are separate. When my sister C left, she had nothing but negative things to say about the company. Well she now claims that her current job is not paying enough so she took on a couple days at my company. As a side note, it is fairly well known that C and I have not been getting along all that well lately either. I saw her there today (we were both working) and I was astounded at the anger that I felt. Because we all have pretty well the same group of friend's, this company was my territory. I found it totally annoying to hear her for the last hour of my shift. I see her often enough as it is, just fucking let me do my job without hearing her damn voice too!!!!!

Emotional Purging

Had dinner at L's tonight. Her hubby C is sick, the boys are tired and tempermental, I'm worn right out and have a huge assignment due Wednesday morning which I have barely started. I had already decided that I was leaving around 7:30ish. By that point C is going to bed, M is nearly in tears because he is so frustrated with his homework, CM is in tears because I wouldn't give him ice cream, L is trying to sort of M's homework and I am ready to tear my hair out. Then I get such a loving (please do note that there should be sarcasm in here) text from my sister, CC. So I go outside to fight with her. It was ridiculous. By the time everyone gets settled it is closer to 9:30, so L and I started talking. Well we dredged up everything. From her mom, my mom, health issues, insecurities. When I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING.Things that I would never tell anyone. She was in tears, I was in tears and all at different times.
A couple weeks ago, she wrote me a very sweet letter and told me to face myself and accept the gifts that I have. Everytime I look at the letter I wonder what gifts she is talking about. I never see myself this way, I'm more the, this person pissed me off, how could (s)he do that to so and so, I'm gonna kick there ass type of person. So I asked her about it. She made me sit there staring into a mirror well she started describing my gifts. We made it through the physical before we got on a far more emotional topic and both started crying yet again. On a my other blog I had another post called emotional purging. This is what sprouted all of these letters, plus get a little wine in L and I and the emotions start to fly. Probably part of why C always decides to head to bed early.

Update on Marriage

So M didn't propose to CC. She was pissed. So of course then she comes to me going why the fuck did you tell him to buy me a ring? What were you thinking? On the plus side it is a beautiful ring.

Marriage

So my sister, CC's boyfriend stopped in to see me at work today. We chatted for a bit, then I had to go. So he stops me as I'm leaving to say that he is going to by CC jewellery and wants to know if I have any suggestions. So I tell him that she wants a ring (they have been together about 6 months, but about 2 years ago they had been together for years before that) because she misses having a 'promise ring'. Next weekend they are going away to a fancy ski resort. He came to find me later to show me a beautiful diamond solitare set in white gold. He says he is going to give it to her when they are at the resort. Of course my mushy heart is thinking oh my God he is going to propose this weekend. Awwww. So cute. Updates to follow next week. Unfortunatly I can't tell any of my other sisters so I'm stuck here.

Is She or Isn't She... That Tis the Question

So one of my sisters, E, has been wondering if our friend L is cheating on her hubby. I say no, but I still wonder (unfortunatly for L so does her hubby). My sister comes to visit me at work today. I work in fashion, L works at a cosmetics counter in the same store. E and I talk for a bit then she says she is going to go say hi to L. When my shift is over, E and I head outside for a smoke. She proceeds to tell me about this guy who looks very similar to L's hubby (but different enough that she knew it wasn't) came over to the counter. Him and L hug and she kind of 'subtly' moves E along. This has totally piques E's curiousity. Hence why she mentioned it to me. If anyone would get to the bottom of it I would. Between flat out asking L, to subtle questions, or as a last resort asking L's friend W. Hehe, sneaky, but asking W won't work because W is having an affair and isn't a fan of L and I spending time together. REAAAAALLLLY want to know. Thanks E for perking up my interest too!

Ignorance

So I'm leaving work today, and I see a woman, A, from another department out having a smoke. Being the consistent smoker that I am, I join her. The headline in todays paper was about a young teacher who was pregnant and murdered (hi, Scott Pederson flashbacks, anyone). This young woman was East Indian. A is German and the other woman was just plain caucasian. Both of them are going on about how ridiculous the East Indian culture is to women and how of course the husband or the brother in law killed her etc. Now, don't get me wrong I fully believe that her husband killed her, but that is based simply on previous cases and slight descriptions from the papers. If that was how A and this random woman proceeded with this conversation, fine. But no, just about everything is a stereotype about the culture, not to mention A's rambling about the law and what the police need. She claims that they need to break the family and get a confession. Sorry hun, but I'm a third year crim student, unless there is evidence to support the confession, it aint gonna do a whole hell of a lot. Argh, I was so damn angry from this conversation.

New Blog

As the title states, this is a new blog for me. My previous (and still existing blog) can be found here. I let one of my friends know about my formerly anonymous blog so I had to create a new one. I will still update both on a regular basis.

Today's observation will be on XBF. Met XBF at the pub tonight. Been awhile since we've talked so I figured why not eh. After an hour I had heard the same stories for the billionith time and he kept giving me the same old puppy dog look. I remembered why I broke up with him. Every once in awhile I will wonder if I should have stayed with him. So I'll call him up, we'll go out and I will remember exactly why we are 'just friends'.

*Update* I have already gotten another text from him saying that he wants to hang out again. I will get about 6 of these this week and a couple next week until I actually decide to see him again. This is a major reason why we broke up in the first place